Beauty

As i got older, i realised my make up bag is getting bigger and bigger but not until i reorganised my cosmetics and cleaned my brushes only then i realised that half of the cosmetics i have was not used or rarely being used too. 

Again with my mantra at the back of my mind, If you have not used or worn an item for the last 6 months, time to toss them in the bin or charity basket! 

My beauty must haves! (everything else is out!)

I still prefer the Naked Palette 1 of the 3! Love the colours and it is indeed long lasting! Also must remind myself too, to get the Basics when i head up to New York in November! The one one i am missing!

My ultimate favourite blush! Ideal for all seasons and a highlighter when you in need of a glowy summer! =))

How can i not have my korean cosmetics in my list! Etude House curling mascara is awesome! Love it! It curls, no clumps or mess, easy to wipe off! so what’s not to love! I don’t have much korean cosmetics but i have heaps of korean skincare! haha

This product was recommended to me by my very own good friend who is also a beauty editor. I’ve tried a lot of BB creams in the market which are most Korean brands like Skin 79 and etc. Garnier. hmmm it never cross my mind at all. Local supermarkets such as Coles and Woolworths usually have them on sale for $10 every three months so why not try it right? Bought it on sale, applied it, fell in love with in and rush back to the supermarket and bought another one to stock up! And it has been my favourite every since.. Recommended to a couple of friends who loved it as it wasn’t oily or cakey and really easy to apply! It pretty much look pretty natural but with a little bit of coverage!

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I have been wanting to update for a while. When too many events collide, your mind keeps shuffling them and it just gets too quick to even type everything out in limited time.
I have been following a few hijabistas for awhile. Masya’Allah they are all so pretty in their own unique way. A few beautiful instagrammers that i adore includes @shearasol @mdmluvhearts @lilmrspolkadots @ananasser @ilyana. Loved their outfits and styles. Too adorable. I’ve already had too much stuff in my shopping cart with SufyaaThe Pop Look and Zawara. Ohhh and the shawls from Sugar ScarfAdlina Anis and Sahara Shawls are too awesome too!
Insya Allah one day, I’ll don the hijab. I know! Excuses after excuses indeed but Truthfully, i don’t have any. I don’t even know what’s stopping me. I am still searching for answers from him. I don’t even know anymore what’s holding me back.
Such awesomness to start the entry on a lighter note.
And thereafter… an unfortunate event happened at work. It comes to a point that going to work has been a dreadly chore and a safety issue on my part. As much as i want to work late to earn extra allowances, it became a nightmare and heading home was the only option. I promised myself that this year, I would have a career change for a better future and upgraded self development capabilities. However, the job market doesn’t even look that promising either but i am going to give my all and try my best to get out there before i go on my vacation.
 

Marriage Life ^5

Have been officially married for 5 months. There’s so much you learnt as a wife, even 5 years in a Relationship with the same man won’t prepare you for marriage life. It is all a bitter sweet learning curve isn’t it? I have to shake perceptions off people’s mind that just because we have been in a long term relationship and eventually married, doesn’t mean that we had it good the whole time. There’s been several peaks and abundance of lows to get to where we are today.
I don’t consider our relationship as lucky but more like it has been written in our paths.
And even till now, nothing has changed.. it’s still all the same. You’ll get the highest peaks and struck with the deepest lows. Relationships can never be perfect. Ever. If it is, wouldn’t the world be a better place? There’s no broken homes, broken friendships and severe family ties. So quit thinking we had it good, because we definitely don’t. Each day i pray to be a better wife, to have the patience and strength to get through the tests he has challenged us with. Each day, i prayed he gave us the light in this dark road that we’re taking.
I wouldn’t doubt it, i still have butterflies in my stomach whenever i see him. If i could race it back home (instead of taking the bus!) i would have, every single day just to see his smile. Despite us both annoying each other to the fullest everyday. Despite us arguing about petty stuff. At times how much we hate each other and wish we have spells to make each other *poof*! God chose us to be with each other for a reason, we both might not figured it out yet. But insya Allah one day we will.

Changes.

At one point or another in this life, you’ll realised that Change is desirable and needed. Not wanted. 

Change is not just or limited to trying to be pious or be an “Ustazah or Ustaz” to anyone. Change to become a better person. Change is solely upon yourself, not for your family, friends, lovers, husbands or strangers. Change is for NOONE but YOURSELF. 

Forget about the judgement of others, girlfriends, friends or even family. So let them criticise. The only Judgement that matters are His, and with His all Almighty and great Mercies to grant us forgiveness. Do everything with good intentions.

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I must say that attending the Women’s Conference organised by the HIYC Sisters organisation has been so beneficial. It shed some light and feeds the soul with the positivity, the strength and made us remember the gift that Allah created for us Women. Change can be a big tasks but all you need is that one step, even if it’s as tiny as baby steps. A step to explore a whole new world that has been carved for you.

In other words, you will realise that the person who injured you only did so based on Allah’s preordainment and decree.  People are only means, but the One Who decrees and decides is Allah, so surrender your will to Him.”

Firsts of changes and adaptation

it has been nearly 4 months since our wedding day. 

so much has changed. so many changes to adapt. time to blab a little.

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It was definitely not easy moving in with the In Laws for a Girl like me. I had jitters of a different kind. Been living independently for the last 4 years and to move back living with a family was quite an adapting change. 

Despite how awesome and great your in laws are, you’ll always feel that there has been an invisible expectation that was put before you even came into the family. Nonetheless, I count it upon my blessing in so many ways.

Reading a few of my friend’s Facebook statuses regarding their Siblings-In-Law made me shudder if i have been doing things wrong or should have i done things differently. Nonetheless, i woke up every morning trying to do things differently in order to please the household. Yet, you are your own worse critic, hence, nothing was ever sufficient. Alhamdullilah, a step at a time, it eases me through the transition… 

“If there is one recipe for unhappiness it is that: expectations.” – Yasmin Mogahed

Marriage is way different than your average relationships and nevertheless, it doesn’t prepare you no matter how long you have been in the relationship before you got married to your husband.

Petty fights are not as easy as sleeping over it or run away or avoiding calls when you were living separately. Now, the anger lingers stronger since you’re stuck under that one roof. It can be emotionally draining when you got nowhere to hide. Facing it head on can be as challenging as crying silently, wishing it will all go away.

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Looking forward to what this phase of life brings me. Good or Bad. Redha is the key.