Coleman Black Out 10 Men Tent

As I lay here in bed, (in our Coleman tent that we finally used a year later!) and hearing the waves crashing against the shore, the stress and tension of this worldly life slowly fades away.

It’s has only been 5 days into 2023. But the past two weeks has been quite stressful with workload. I’ve been having such bad migraines. I think this camping trip was much needed. Time to reset and reconnect to nature, sometimes I feel the need to stay/be grounded.

I’ve always dreamt of owning a beach house, so that I can pray and sleep whilst listening to the crashing waves. Oh how therapeutic! A retirement plan I hope in the making.

A group of friends were kind enough to invite us to join them on their camping trip. I don’t think we’ll ever discover this awesome place at Seaspray if not for them. Camping lots are generous, the facilities are well maintained and being across the beach is a bonus!

Our last day of camp, Anne managed to whip up some good old gado gado which is awesome! Ayden had so much fun camping with his peers for the first time our of his current social circle. Glad he is settling well too.

Till our next camping trip!


September 20th

I told myself, we are celebrating you today! So just offering loads of dua for your hereafter. No tears and no sadness shall filled the day. I promised.

As I retire to bed, I can’t help looking at your photos because I miss you. Very much. These tears just couldn’t stop flowing. I broke my promise.

Happy Birthday Mak!

May Allah place you among the pious in Jannah. May Allah forgive all your sins and accept all your prayers and good deeds. I pray that we will be reunited in Jannah. Amin 🤲🏼


Daily Affirmations

Good and bad days exist in this journey called life. One day you feel broken, the next day you feel whole. It’s all part of the Almighty’s Plan. It’s teaching us to lay complete trust in Him. Remember, we walk by faith. He will not allow us to break, He will carry us through!

Whatever it is you’re going through, remember you don’t have all the answers to your trials. The Almighty does. Your job is to bear patience and manage the situation the best way you can. Let Him handle the rest. You need to trust Him. He is your Protector and your Healer!

Things didn’t work out because you were under the Almighty’s Divine Protection. Understand His Plan. Yet half the time we pine for what’s over and gone and refuse to accept that He did it in our best interest. He always does.

I thought of you…

I thought of you today.. I texted but no reply.. so I texted the next best person to see how you are.. She said you’ve been in the hospital for a month..

I broke down and cry in the tram. I even forget about the stressful and overwhelming day I had. Knowing you’re trying to win this battle on your own. Just breaks me. Each time I see you, you’re all smiles.. Little did I know, you’re battling such a huge test.

I wish I knew sooner. I wish. but what could I have done? Your acting is amazing. You are going for a treatment this week. So I pray to Allah that He will make it easier for you and relieve you from all your struggles that you’re battling. I know it’s not easy.

[2.284] Whatever is in the heavens and whatever is in the earth is Allah’s; and whether you manifest what is in your minds or hide it, Allah will call you to account according to it; then He will forgive whom He pleases and chastise whom He pleases, and Allah has power over all things.

Before I left you last June, I hugged you extra tight and told you to take care of yourself. I already knew then but I know you wouldn’t want anyone to know. So I pretend I didn’t.

I miss you, A.